I hate myself so much right now. I'm lonely and I can't do anything about it.
Music isn't helping, oh well.
I had a really creepy dream last night. Something about this weird guy who would take people and store them in this Silent Hill looking warehouse. He castrated all of the guys then went after me. I escaped or at least I think I did. He was really bizarre looking too. Somehow I am finding it harder and harder to have a half decent dream.
I think the last good dream I had was one involving my running away and somehow living with Cat and Kira, though I would just be an annoyance. Or it was the one where Cat and me were in an anime video store.
No body likes being with me. Or, at least from my point-of-view it looks like all of my friends hate me and have had enough with me.
I wish I could see them. My Master is on vacation so I can't see her either.



i feel sick